i Am sORRy tOO

soRry dAd....

we Are JUSt BOth iN A BAd MOod...

i cRiEd so HArd pErhAp coZ i cAre"

SPEciAL FREnZ..spEciAl MOMEnts

A sIMpLE nIght..

everyoNE ENjoYed" hAppiE BIRthdAY.. tiME fliEs... All E MEmORiEs tiLl FOREVER*

Ah Qi..Ah roS..AH xiAn...fRENZ coMEs n GOes..NUTHin IS fOREVEr..." wHEn E tiME to coME, U JUst HAve to LEt gO..WHicH coME N GOEs..lifE still gO On...MOst iMptly chEriSh DIs VEry MoMEnts With E spEciAl ONes..

i lOve U gUys...NO mAtTer WHere i am..i still RMb U All..*fOREVEr*

tHOugH I May Not NOe WAt Will HApPEn iN fUTure..till NOw..i still cARe AlOt..is AlOt n Alot..

JUSt So f*K UP"

oH Well..DAmn it..

it WASnt MY fAult...

n U ShoUted At ME"

wAt DO U THINK i Am?

i hATe it....HOW I WiSh i NEVEr NEEd to dEPEnd ON U..

i Am STArtiN to EArn..TO EArn MY freEDOM..n ONE dAY THEre WIll BE a DAY WHEn WE DUn OWn EAcHotHEr ANytHin..NUtHIn"

U SHoUld LEArn to RESpEct otHErs BE it U are MY FAtHEr.. OthERWIse U will reGRet e thIngs TAt U sAId HURt..n cAn NEver bE tAken BAck..................

My 1St 1yR ANNiVErSAry

HAhAHa...WAh..toDAy IS reAlly An IROnICAl DAy..sAD MOMEnts n A MIx OF HAppy MOMents.. oH My...HAhax..i cRIEd toDAy IN FrOnt OF HIm..WE Were SItTinG BY E ROADSiDe..n I WAs SObbIn AWAy... i toLD HIm HOW I FElt...e EMotiONs e tEArs JUSt OoziNg OUt..I JUSt cAnt coNtRol..

i TOLd HIm..i cAnt FEEl His lovE..e wAy hE HEld MY HAnd..i NO lONger FEEl it ANyMOre.. i wAS ScAred...i toLD HIm mY FEAr..wIll it bE pErmAnent? i sAid TAt a RElAtIOnshIp WithOUt LOVe..cAn it gO oN? i will RAtHEr giVE uP...

i criEd AgAin...

HE JUSt HUggEd ME tiGHt...n wiPEd MY tEArs AWAy..HE NEVer sAy ANythIN..

n wHEn I stoPPEd N askEd HIm , " dO U Still LOVE ME?"
WE cAMe face tO fAce, n he sAId, "YEs, i DO" n i fAll intO HIs ArmS...

AmAZingly, i tRUst HIm, i BEliEve whAt HE sAy...jUSt SimPLy a FEW worDS mAke ME reGAin My COnfiDence..And tHEn I stopPEd..i StOPPEd cryiN...n suRpRIsiNgly, i dUn FEEl HEArtAchEs AnYMore..OH Well..i REAlly Dun UNDErsTAnd MYself tOO..

sOMEtiMEs, THingS JUSt DUn Go Rite..FEEliNGs Are Still THEre JUSt Tat BEcAuSe OF SoME reAsoNS, e feelINgS Are goNE...wE Are JUst NOt in A GD MOOD LAtEly, And When THingS Are Not WorkING, thIngs Are DOwn..dUN piN POInting..THE BESt IS to Sit down..n TRAsh It Out Softly..cRy IT OUT.. I Am GLAD i cRIEd today..THOUgh I criEd So HArd.. bUt i GEt tO KNOw mY Ans...An Ans TAt i LOng For..

i Am GLad I NEvEr giVe Up..LEt's MOVE on HAND iN HAnd..thOUgh it MAy BE REal toUGh AT tiMEs, bUt i Am WIllIng tO trY It OUt..to LOVE u witH mY HEArt..

LAstly, HAppiE !yr AnNIVErsAry!! i dO lovE U lots..

20.8.07

hUi" =) KIssIEs n HUGs..

A NEW birtH..A NEW LIFe

EVEry lifE IS PRECiOUS..BEAutiFUl, AmAZing..

SOmethIN tHAt cAnt SImPly dEScriBE in ONE woRd OR tWo...

it COMES with HArdShip IN exCHAnge OF A reWArd..A GIft TAt NO MONEy in diS WOrld cAn bUy witH....

HOrOScOPE: BEliEVe it oR NOt

SCORPIO - The Addict> EXTREMELY >>>adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke.> Very Good sense of> humour. >>>Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser.> Always get what> they >>>want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in> long> relationships. >>>Talkative. Romantic. Caring.

VIRGO - The One that Waits> Dominant in >>>relationships. Someone loves them> right now. Always> wants the >>>last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal.> Easy to talk to.> >>>Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The> one and only.

LIBRA - The Lame One> >>> Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a> kind. Silly, >>>fun> and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring> person you >>>will ever> meet! however not the kind of person you wanna> mess >>>with ... u might> end up crying...

ARIES - The Liar> Outgoing. Lovable. >>>Spontaneous. Not one to mess> with. Funny.> Excellent kisser >>>EXTREMELY adorable. Loves> relationships, Addictive.> Loud.

AQUARIUS - Does It In >>>The Water> Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a> kind. >>>Loves being in> long-term relationships. Extremely energetic.> >>>Unpredictable. Will> exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But >>>will> Knock your lights> out.

GEMINI - Irresistible> Nice. Love is one of a >>>kind. Great listeners Very> Good in the you> know where... Lover >>>not a fighter, but will still> knock you out.> Trustworthy. Always >>>happy. Loud. Talkative.> Outgoing VERY FORGIVING.> Loves to make >>>out. Has a beautiful smile.> Generous. Strong. THE MOST> >>>IRRESISTIBLE.

LEO - >>>The Lion> Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid> back. >>>Knows how to> have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great> >>>kisser.> Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive.> >>>Attractive. Loud.> Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. >>>Not> one to mess with.> Rare to find. Good when found.

CANCER - The Cutie> >>> MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one> of a kind. Very> >>> romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet!> Entirely >>>creative.> Extremely random and proud of it. Freak.> Spontaneous. >>>Great telling> stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights> >>>out if it comes> down to it. Someone you should hold on to.

PISCES - The >>>Partner for Life> Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. >>>High> appeal. Has the> last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun >>>to be> around.Extremely> weird but in a good way. Good Sense of >>>Humor!!!> Thoughtful. Always> gets what he or she wants. Loves to >>>joke. Very> popular. Silly, fun> and sweet.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover> >>>Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy.> Predict future.> >>>Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships.> Great talker.> >>>Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to> own Gemini's in> >>>sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

TAURUS - The Tramp> Aggressive. >>>Loves being in long relationships.> Likes to give a good> fight >>>for what they want. Extremely outgoing.> Loves to help people> in >>>times of need. Good kisser. Good personality.> Stubborn. A caring> >>>person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are> the most attractive> >>>

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One> Spontaneous. High appeal. >>>Rare to find. Great when> found. Loves> being in long >>>relationships. So much love to give.> Not one to mess with. Very >>>pretty. Very romantic.> Nice to everyone> They meet. Their Love is >>>one of a kind. Silly, fun> and sweet. Have> own unique appeal. >>>Most caring person you will> ever meet! Amazing in> the you know >>>where..!!!> Not the kind of person you wanna mess with- you> might >>>end up crying.>

wHEn My WorLD SINK iNTo DArknEss......................

WhEn EVErytHin JUSt DUn WOrk OUt..N SoMEtimEs SOMetHinG IN UR HEArt, U JUSt cAnt tEll ANyONe cOz THEre Are SOMetHIn EvEn UR clOSest FrenZ Wont uNDerstAnd It.. wOnt UNderStaND U...n e wHOle WORld sInk dEEPer N dEepEr INtO dARkNesS totAl dArknEss~

TOTAL DARKNESS" loNEliNESs n DEspERAtiON"

soMEWhEre tHEre IS ALWAy A sOURcE of LIGht gUIdIn ME thRouGh.. sHOWin ME e PAth..e wAy to BE fReEd" it MAy TAke soME tiMEs...BUt it iS oKAy...it IS ALrite" at leAst it is THEre...still THEre...still tHerE fOR ME~

200pOUnds BEAuty

BEEn A lONG timE SINCe i CRiED AfTer wAtcHiN A gD MOViE...

i cRiEd SO HArD tAT NItEx...fINd it So TOuCHiN" rEAlly tOuChEd My HEArt...

"WHat's A pErSon tO dO WhEn All tHEy cAn DO IS WAtcH fRoM AfAr?"

dO yOu HAve AnY IDEA WhAt it fEEls LIke NOt BEin ABLE tO coNFess oNE's lOvE??"

我爱你"

因为爱得很深？所以心会痛？

爱情啊到底是个什么东西？有些人寻寻觅觅地追寻真爱，到头来真的会找到吗？曾经有人这么说过一个人的一身中会遇到四个人：一个是你最爱的人，一个是最爱你的人，一个是在你人生中你刚巧遇到的人而最后一个就是自己了。

很多时候，你最爱的人并不是最爱你的人，而到最后与你白头到老的却是你刚巧在自己人生某个阶段出现的人-并非是你最爱的更不是最爱你的那个人。因为你最爱的人没有选择你，你也没有选择最爱你的那个‘他或她’。人有时很矛盾哦？命运弄人？ 有缘无分...

曾经许下的承诺，有过的约定，随着时间的流失而被遗忘。可是曾经相爱过，就不会后悔？ 友情变爱情再从爱情变回友情，真的可以吗？可是悲哀的，为什么爱情会变成无情？仇恨？陌生人啊？要放手比得到更痛苦吧？有时候真的会累啊，少了谅解，信任反而多了误会。

爱啊这个东西，我有时也搞不懂。暧昧，相爱，离别，心痛，哭泣，是个轮回吗？要哭过才能明白吗？要真心相爱，要心痛过，才会了解自己要什么吧？

我是个很容易放下的人【是真的吗？我也不知道，哈哈】，你放下了吗？还是只是不让自己去回忆把它暂时遗忘，冷冻？还是事实上我们不逞真心爱过而只是在对的时刻，对的感觉干好地就在一起了呢？

每一次，我都很用心，用心去爱‘他’，可是我也会开始想一想这样爱‘他’的方式对吗？‘他’需要的是什么？然后就明白原来我以前错了～ 因为‘他’需要的比我想象的还要简单，单纯。对自己的无理取闹，万分的不谅解感到惭愧，我错了。

是真的，这一次。我想我真的爱上了他，是比以前更爱更爱～

我哭过，心酸过，想过放弃过，也重新再来过：
"心好痛好痛，是因为爱的很深很深"
两个不同世界的人，相遇了，而且还相爱了，很奇妙吧？

My WEiRd eNcoUnTEr WItH a WEiRd cHAp

3th AUg 07.....
At 1500hrS...i fiNAlliE reAch yCk MRt oN e WAy tO clEmEnti to GIvE WEIxi tUItion n MEt Mr MAoMAo AFteR TAt...hAha...i foUND a SEAt n whIle i Was foCUsin MY VISion ON e NDP pOSter: " hOld UR BREath........." sUddEnly, a Soft VoicE in MAndArin cAmE frOm e BAck OF MY nEck" hEllo..hEllo...cAn i ASk U A QNs????" I WAs LIKe AlritE fiNE SiNCe i Waitin for MY trAIn i Dun MIND sPArin SOMe tiME cHAttiN wiTh hIM...

HE iS rAthEr sKInNy...sHOrt HAir..clAD iN a T-sHirt TAt dUn Suit HIS AgE..proPErly aBOUt my Age oR YOUnger 1or 2 yrS...

i wAs AmUSed By hIS nExt qNS....HE ASKed Me Not TO BE aNGRy witH His QNs And HE aSked whEtHEr HE cAn BE a WOman? n hOw diD i ANsWer him?
i sAid Up tO u hEllo...! if U LIke BEin a WOmAn so be it..mOSt IMptly HE iS HAppy After BEcoMin a WomAn... i thInk he iS rATher sUrpriSed witH my Ans.. n he QUeStiONed Me aGAin Why i DiDnt Ask Him e REAson y HE cHooSe to BE a WOman...i WAS lIke hEllo..U wAn to BE A WOmAn TAt is UR PRoB...oH MAn...i dUn tHInk i sHoUld INTerfEre witH hIS mAtter..n I tEll Him TAt IF HE reAlly dEciDe to bEcoME a WomAn, he Will NEEd lots OF coURagE n he need to BE brAve EnOUgh tO fAcE Up e rEAlity n CruElty TAt He will GEt froM othErs...n aGAin HE sEEm rAtHer cOnfuSed n SurPriSed...HAax..

HE coNTiNUed to TEll ME tAT hE WAn to DOn On WOmAn clOthIn..UNDerGArmEnts aND EVEn Ask ME to BRing Him to BUy e clOthin.. AFter TAt HE Went FuRTHEr And askEd ME whEtHEr he cAn DriNk a WomAn's URIne..YUCK!!!! i SAid NO!!!! n AgAin HE ALWAYs ASk ME mY viEWs ABoUt HIs tHiNKin....woRsE still HE prOceed to Ask ME wHEtHEr HE cAn REmovE hIS dick...n KEEp toUChin His diCk At e sAme tiMe..i wAS LIke HEllO!! u wAn to KEEp it OR LEAve it IS Up to U...my GOd...ACtUAllie i was fElt liKE telLIn HIm of GOin foR a GEndEr reAssignMEnt in MY WArd to GEt it doNE...n i REAlly GEt irritAted AS TiME goEs By.. n lUCkiLy MY trAIn cAMe...thAnk GOd!!!! bUt i Do FeEl sAd FOr HIm... i AskEd WHetHEr he TOld HIs FAmily HOw HE feEl n he saiD NO" From ANothEr VIew...i thINk HE IS a LONEly POor Chap...i dUn nOe HOW IS HE goiN to HAnDle All hIs thINkiN evEyrdAy... BEIn LOSt in HIS OWn WOrlD..N IDentity coNFlict..

My 10minS COnVErSAtIOn with Him mAKe ME sYMpAthISe with HIs PLight n CoNDItion.. it IS KINDa LIke tHEre IS An IMPEndiN DOom WAitin For HIm if HE IS not ABle to SeEk e PRopEr trEAtMEnt in tiME... MAy HE bE ABLE to FinD e ritE PErsOn whO cAN reAlly givE Him A HElPin HAnd...

wEll..aLthOUgh i Am Not USed tO diS kIND oF enCOuNter witH diS kIND of gUY, it Do MAke mE bE AWArE tAt thEre Are POOr sOUls lIKe hIm RoAmiN AROuND in thIS WOrLD... if i dO HAve timE NExt tiME...i MAy RefEr HIm to SeeK HElp IN iMH For TReAtMEnt... sO IF ANYoNE oF U mEt DIS KINDa of Ppl..be brAve n ASk THEm to sEek HElp frOM PRofEssioNAls BAh...

hUi"

DON't trEAt oTheRs e WAy U dUn wAn tO BE trEatEd"

diS pIC SPeAk A thOusAnd WOrDs..

POWErFul MSg to briNg AcRoSS.."

piErcE riTE tHROuGh MY heArt...