e nIGht whEre Ya criEd to Zzzz EVERY nIGht~
a clOSelY kNItTEd fAmilY*
jUSt duN cOME eAsILy.........
mY HEArt BLEd every NIGht....e nIGht iS LOng..i dreAd..i HAte..tormENtiNG...
U cAn NEver IMAgINE ThE feelIN..e feelING...e PREmOnitioN.. breAkiN APART* breAkiN OFf..goIN UR oWn wAys..oNE fAmilY? i cant imAgINE we neEd to GO OUR oWn WAy....
we foUNd lOts oF thiNGS inacciDEntAlly..n we ARE afrAid BOut the TRUTH tAt is hIDDen BENEAth..MUM n dAd~ breAKIn APART? we HAVE lotS OF qNS iN e mINd..in E HEArt..
lASt NIght we WAItEd till 4Am jUSt to wAit for HIm TO BE bAck...to fiND OUt the trutH~ the fActs...n WAt is goIN ON?!
whEn MUM toLD mE SoME thiNGs...mY HEart bled..diSApPOInTMEnt..sAdness jUSt OVErwhElMEd ME..it WAs suFFOcATiNG ME...i cRIed sEcREtLy the FEW NIGhts..jUSt NOt to LEt AnyONE nOE....
yeSt nIGht..hE wAs fiNAlly BACK HOME* n e *conFRONTAIOn* BEGAN...i lefT thE tAlKIN to MY BIG bRO with MY MUm N MY DAd...e mOMEnts wAs heArtBREakIN........i crieD AGAiN..
we jUSt WAnnA fiND oUt e truTH...fROm HIM n NOT from ANYoNE ElSe... he wAs aNGRy..FRUstRAted n At e sAme tiME...hE WAnTEd to LEAve the hOUse..duN WAnnA explAin ANythiN...bUt hE kNEW he cAnt HIDe...he cAnt Run AWAy..coZ HE still OWe US An explAnation..the seSSioNS were lONG bUt wortH THE timE...
My BRo KEEp emPhaSiZin: we are A fAmiLY tAT is y WE cAre..n we JUSt WAnnA to FINd out WAt IS GOIN oN? n if i dun resPEct YA AS A fAther..i couLD Have fiND oUt but i wAnNA fIND Out froM YA.......
n mY DAd KEEp sAyiN: we HAd BEEn toGEThEr for mORE THAn 20over years..n dis is MY fAMiLY n FOr the 1st tiMe..HE SAid hE lOVed mUm As A wifE n She cAN ONLy BE e only wife HE HAd...
the diScuSSioN Went oN..at tiMEs..he ExpLODed AGAin..MY dAd IS A MAn with HIGh self estEEm..stUBBorN...hot tempEred bUt i still BEliEVe he still cAre for thIS fAmiLY... n MY Bro criEd..tHE LASt tiME i sAw HIM cried IS WHEn we were At MY GRAndMA's WAke.. everythiN the AtmOSpHEre LIGhteN UP slIGHtly..it was roUND 5PLUS Am..everyONE wAs tireD..we NEEd a reSt..
i cAn ONly Say Is we truSt hIm still..n it is somethIN TAt nEEd to BE WIthIN the fAMiLy...i cAnt BEAr to LOSe diS...coZ i reAlly JUSt cAnt LEt gO...MY heArt bled for THE PAst FEW dAys...n i went to WOrk TRYIn not to thiNK bOut it.. hMMmm..rATher tHAn avOiDiN..THERE iS STill tiME we HAve to GO thROUGh it...fAce it togETher.. even thoUgh it REAlly HURT uS A Lot..bUt well..it brINgs US clOSer toGEther...
i lOVE mY fAMilY siMPly too MUCh.. love..trust cAre N CONCErn..RESPECT n MOSt IMPortAntly POOR/nO COMMUNICATION seem to BE e fAtAl miStAke we ALl MAde everytiMEs..be it within UR frenZ..ur fAMiLY n siMPLy BET ALl UR lOVEd ONEs...
PLS cHERIsH wAt U HAVE* pLeASe...~
Monday, March 24, 2008
a lONG wEEkenD TAt i dreAd~
Posted by bitCHoUtnBEfreed at Monday, March 24, 2008
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